when my basilar type migraine strikes
while nursing the throbbing veins in my head, i browsed through the vastness of cyberspace. it’s my way of distracting myself of the pain that i am powerless against and the emptiness i’m feeling. it’s not because of the holiday but because i am missing my son terribly.
i noticed that i can’t sleep soundly again: taken as i sleep 2-3 hours max. i even have to pop a sleeping pill yesterday to force me into dreamland. my system is just so used to having the snores, heavy breathing and occasional limb jerking when my yves is sleeping beside me. i know it’s my fault but i just really have to get rid of his previous nanny. so now i’m left with no choice but to share him with a few of my previous ‘kids’ gracious and loving families to take care of him while i’m working. i am very grateful and lucky though that they’ve come to my/our aid. hell, if this situation happened to us and we’re in makati i can say goodbye to my career again. i would easily give my career up though just to ensure that he’s taken cared of.
funny thing here is that i see my son around other people whom i’m sure is enamored with him. its weird that i see his face around other people’s friendster account. he’s like the garden gnome in the movie amelie. he’s everywhere except around the person he truly misses… to be continued… i think my brain’s about to explode…
anyways, i think i’m just addicted to google and typing in lowercase.
